Thursday was truely awful.
I am trying to sort out working and day care for my daughter, we have a place in \family Day Care, which is totally awesome. AND the good news was I spoke to a lady who uses the same carer at family day care and she's been really happy with her. Her daughter loves her, blah blah blah. SowWe're going to give it a trial and if it all goes to hell I will stop work...

However, my Mum has not been very supportive, but I felt like she was starting to understand why we didn't have any other option, until Thursday.
She calls saying 'oh did you know that you can extend your maternity leave for another 12 months".
I'm like, I know, but we need the money etc, and she was saying 'oh but if you waited another 12 months your kid will be able to talk and tell you if she doesn't like the carer'.
I was so pissed off with her. she said 'couldn't you just cope with the money you're getting now?' I said no if interest rates keep going up there is now way.
(ps Tristan and I have talked about this (surprisingly enough!) and we could get by, but if an emergency happened we'd be screwed).
Anyway I was so angry with her, she's obviously been so privileged with the money my dad earned that she doesn't get what it's like to have to pay off a house and pay bills like real people.
I think she thinks I really want to send my kid to someone else to care for her, like I'm not totally sad and going to miss her. Fucking douche is all I can say....

So this phone call happened as I was getting in the car to go to 'Tiny Tots Storytime' the library and as I was pulling out of the driveway I was a bit distracted and blinded by the sun and didn't see this couple walking across the footpath. I wasn't sticking out too far, but obviously they had to stop in a hurry.
I said I was sorry and the dude came up to my window and said "you know it's illegal not to stop". And I said again I'm really sorry I didn't see you with the sun in my eyes.
He just kept crapping on and in my head I was getting so angry, I was actually sorry at first but then I got all defensive. 'you don't know me', 'I'm a really nice person', 'fuck you I didn't actually hit you'. Grr, so I drove off really mad and sad and felt like crap all day thinking something else really bad was going to happen to me that day.