Attachment Parenting

Yep, that's what it's called. It's where the child is never left alone. Always held by the parents. This is also the way they are able to sleep with the parents in the same bed.

It sounds a lot like some parts of India, where the child is always held by any family member. I had a patient who was hit by a car, his wife had just given birth. They were alone in Australia, no family and she didn't speak any English. Anyway even though he had some pretty serious injuries, he wanted to get home because his wife was having to cope with always lugging the child around. It was something about bad spirits or kharma if the child was left alone. Very facinating, but sounded really frustrating to carry out when you're not surrounded by a lot of family to take the burden away.

I found that it gets really annoying to continuosly hold the baby, especially if you just wanted a break, or some alone time. I don't think I could ever do this. I can understand the value of being there for the child becasue it reduces the baby's stress and crying. I can also totally appreciate sleeping with the bub, given the full-on process of birth and the body needing to heal, not getting up and down to a crying baby, it's really easy to just lie down and let the child feed when it wants. I think, however it's also really important to teach the child to sleep on their own and to understand bedtimes.

Baby Karaoke

So yep as the title suggests I went to 'Baby Karaoke' today. It was held at the Nunawading library.
There were what seemed like thousands of babies there. I popped my kid on the floor getting really excited to have a good sing-a-long.
The lady running it did about 4 songs, then dumped a bunch of toys on the floor and went off.
I was not very impressed. I don't remember many nursery rhymes, but they were more exciting than what this lady did. I don't think I'll go back.

In other astounding news, my kid has rolled over and found her toes. Both of which are really hindering the whole nappy changing process, as she likes to twist on the change table, then pick up her toes so that I can't do the nappy up well. Cute, but annoying!

I am

I feel tired
I feel fat
I don't feel sexy
I feel pressured
I feel overlooked
I don't feel sad
I am not very happy
I feel trapped
I feel taken for granted
I feel lonely
I feel I am getting dumber
I feel boring
I feel bored
I feel challenged
Ifeel hope

Parenting?

I really don't think that it should be called parenting in the first few months of having a baby. It should be known as 'surviving'. I have a feeling that western society expects that having children should not interfere with the real world, and then we become so shocked that these creatures need so much attention.

There is always a question of getting enough sleep, 'how much is she sleeping?' 'are you getting enough sleep?' Babies need to sleep a lot, but they also initially need to eat, and often! we shouldn't be pushing them to conform to our rules just yet. They eventually understand that darkness means nighttime and longer sleep time and like adults they can survive longer periods without constant eating.

I think there are also too many very vocally opinionated people, who all believe they know best for your child and your family. I'm sure there are some questionable decisions with regard to what works i.e. heavy metal music might be the only thing that soothes one baby and the next can't have any noise what-so-ever, but most people pull through and everyone eventually learns how to sleep.

Go here for more discussion on co-sleeping, which triggered off my rant about babies sleep!
http://www.abc.net.au/gnt/future/Transcripts/s1058920.htm

Research

I have decided to give myself some homework to stop my brain from rotting away.
My plan is to look into different cultures and the way they raise babies, specifically 'co-sleeping' with babies. I would then like to compair the rates of SIDS in these places that encourage co-sleeping.
I have found that snoozing with my kid can be very beneficial especially when I'm exhausted, it also makes it easy to feed her when we are lying down. I couldn't spend the whole night with her because she farts and wriggles too much.
So that's my plan. I think I'll give myself a month to get a lot of information, then I guess I better write it down in some form of paper.
Wish me luck.

I had a dream last night that I had another baby. I just pushed it out and then said to Tristan that perhaps we should go to the hospital.
It was surprisingly easy given the extended labour I had this time.
Gosh I'm not ready for that.
Maybe it was because I asked Tristan how many kids he wants!

What have I done?

Oh gosh, I've done it again. I requested an exboyfriend to be my friend on facebook with no message, no nothing. I just did it on a whim just because facebook suggested I do so. Ususally I would send a message if I haven't spoken to that person in a while. And I usually have a strict policy on being friends with people I don't speak with /or want to in the future.

I'm always being a dick with this ex in particular. I remember trying to call my friend Clare on the mobile, but accidently dialled his number becuase he was one number above hers and I just didn't look. It must have been at least 1-2 years since we'd gone out (why oh why didn't I delete his number from my phone?), I'm pretty sure I was engaged, because I recall I was leaving a gym in Knox City, which means I was working in Ferntree Gully, which means I would have been engaged for nearly a year.
Anyway I rang Chris (thinking it was clare) didn't think anything of it when the phone rang out and went to message bank..... Instead of hearing Clare's message I hear a man's voice (I still haven't worked it out yet) then I hear the name Chris.
I hang up.

Why?! I should have left a funny message about thinking it was Clare's number, couldn't he see the mistake with the name, ha ha ha and all that. But NO I decide to hang up like a chicken and make it seem like I'm stalking him. And now I've totally done it again. Grrr to me.

Crying

The other day I was out and about witha friend and the kid.
We noticed that the kid had tears streming down her face, but there was no noise what so ever. This is the most distressing thing I have ever seem. Ususally tears are followed by, or inconjunction with terrible screaming. This was a whole new act. I don't like it and hope the next time she does this she will be old enough to say what is wrong.

I had a discussion with a friend the other day about very small minded christians. We are both from very religious backgrounds and my friend continues to be very involved in her church, I have since left any kind of organised religion yet continue to have a faith.

My friend's husband has a very strict family who say that if anyone came to their home with alcohol they would not let them in. This seemed outrageous to me, given that the 'christian message' is supposed to be about welcoming all people, plus I'm pretty sure Jesus enjoyed a good wine.

This got me thinking about religion and the extremes that some people will go to to uphold their beliefs, no matter how ridiculous or exclusive. I remember being a part of 'church life' and for a while it was perfect, but then I began to sit on the edges of group life and felt that I was being excluded. I think I began to step back when I could see that what people said in front of others was not what was happening in reality, yet I felt I was being myself and falling between the gaps because I was bumbling along trying to be both and (seemingly) failing at all.

I just wonder how people come to faith as an adult when to me the ideas that are sprouted in churches can be very single minded.

I'm not sure if this makes any sense, but for now I 'll keep on thinking.

I'm having fun today listening to my kid chatter while she plays with her toys. It's kind of nice listening to it. i like to have noise in the house and if she's happy it makes me feel like a good(ish) mum.

I think I'm starting to get used to her needs, she cries for different reeasons these days. Na the smiles are so very awesome, they light up her whole face.

I think she is beautiful, but I think I am biased. My sister has cute kids and one friend has a cute daughter, but another has two weird looking kids with massive heads and massive eyes. I don't know if people think she's cute or if they are just saying she's cute.

I feel like i should leave her in a room with a microphone and listen to what people really think of her! It has to be done I think.

Weddings

I went to the cutest wedding on the weekend. If I had to do ours over again I would totally copy this one.
It was for a girl (Heidi) whom I work with, who is not prone to emotional outbursts, so to see her become emotional during the ceremony was good to see - in that way where you know that this is something she is totally passionate about.
It was in a restaraunt that had a dance floor, so the wedding happened and then the reception followed straight after. No fluffing around for hours on end waiting for photos to happen.
The bride's dad was lovely and funny and the speaches awesome. Her speach to her new husband was full of 'Heidiness', she's a very organised person and she knows it. She's also very bossy, yet has a humour to go with her bossiness which makes her less bossy somehow!
They had gingerbread men and women for bon bon aries.
The dancing was fun, the bride doing laps of the dancefloor, grabbing people from all over and making them dance with her. She grabbed me at one point and twirled me around and around. She was hilarious.

I've been to many weddings now and I always enjoy the simple ones the best. And of course, the real joy is the party after it.